Last night my best friend/little sister got married to the man of her dreams. I cherish that she was able to find someone like him, and I’m so happy for the both of them. Course, I am tired today but it was well worth it, and I’m so happy that she allowed me to be a part of the chapter in her life. I love her and her husband (that’s weird to say) to death, and my heart is overjoyed and overflows with happiness!!!!!!


But I have words for the new year that I felt needed to be said, not just for me to help me understand, but maybe my words can help someone else who might need them.

I would say that I’m a “strange” person. I’ve fascinated with concepts of fantasy, the unknowns of what science fiction opens up, I love watching cartoons (the good ones people–not this crap that kids have today that does nothing but rot their brains), the power of music; and at the same time I love to sit and watch a good football game or basketball game, workout, and be an athlete. In my eyes, I’m the definition of well-rounded, having one foot in the arts/geek world and the other foot in the athletic/jock world. I understand both. But this post is to my art/geek side–or more along the lines of my child-like side.

Malcolm Mitchell: a great example of a nerdy jock–like me 😀

My roommate mentioned once, “do you think as kids we knew more about life, and as we’ve grown we’ve just forgotten it all?” In my mind yes. As children we have this child-like wonder that surrounds us in everything we do. To young children, the world holds new wonders and adventures, new things that help them grow and understand–but as we become older, we become cynical as we become aware of the evil/pain that’s in the world. As kids, we knew more about life because we saw life how it was supposed to be–wrapped in wonder and we could see the beauty and mystery all around us.

So what am I trying to say: actually I’m going to let you guys in on something I feel God has told me, and maybe one of you could help me figure out what He’s trying to tell me. On my way home for Christmas break, I was listening to the audio book of The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe, one of my favorite books to read and listen to around Christmas. After I was done, I put in the LWW soundtrack and was just listening when I, as C.S. Lewis put it, had a”feeling like the voice she liked best in all the world was calling her name.”

It has been awhile since I heard this voice, and yes… does sound like a combination between Liam Neeson and the voice of God in The Ten Commandments. That kind of deep, warm, dangerous but loving voice. It stated the same statement that Aslan told Lucy in Prince Caspian: “we must not lie here for long. You have work in hand, and much time has been lost today.”

I felt like Lucy, I couldn’t believe it. I was finally hearing words from God (FINALLY!!) But He was using my favorite books to spread His message?! I didn’t understand until these next words came to me:

You’ve become Peter in this season of your life. You have had a hard time adjusting, I know–and you’re anxious to return back to the world you knew and grew up in…just like Peter. And just like Peter, you feel like you must figure out all these things: your path, your future, your career–because you see your life and though you believe that I’m here, you don’t believe that I have it all figured out and am ready to lead you. And you will find, just like in the story, that you cannot win without My help. You once compared yourself to Lucy dear one, and I would agree. You believed with me, followed Me with child-like faith, and you had an open mind to Me and what I can do. You still do in a way, but you’ve strayed. It’s time for you to return. Return to “Narnia”, you must find your Lucy again, because it’s time. This season is ending and it’s now time for you to come further up and further in, but you can only do this if you return to the mindset that Lucy had. For you know what Aslan says: “This was the very reason why you were brought to Narnia, that by knowing me here for a little, you may know me better there.” You have work in hand, and much time has been lost. Further up, further in.

As Isaiah writes in chapter 43:2-3, “When you pass through the waters, I will be will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.  When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you.  For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior …”

Further up, further in–my pastor gave a sermon on this and I felt like this is the words to 2015. Before going back to school, I want to find my “Lucy” again. I want that feeling of wonder back. I want to be a Wunderkind again. It’s time to walk through the woods with Aslan again, see the world and not the stable. To run further up and further in.