It seems that over the past couple of weeks, it has been one thing, after another, after another, after another, and seriously there was no lemonade wanting to be made. I would have gathered just sat there and sucked on them and let the sour feeling flow through my blood and shut me off from the rest of the world. Literally.

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So, if you’ve followed my blog or you know me, you know thatΒ it takes a lot for me to get to this point. It really takes so much stress to pull me into this kind of funk, and let’s be real, it’s a sucky feeling. With everything, there has to be a balance in your life: between working out, eating, school work, teaching, growing your small business, (if you do this) practicing your music so you can grow small business–it’s all part of balance. And I let mine get out of whack.

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How did I do this? They weren’t big things to some people, but to me–they were, because I’m that type of person where, if I do one thing, ONE THING, off of what I think I should, I beat myself up for it. I have a hard time forgiving myself for it. For example: had 5 slices of pizza after I ate my supper on Tuesday (didn’t have any shame until yesterday πŸ˜› ), banana bread, those saltine cracker things (I call them crack crackers) were in the house…ate almost the whole bag. Peanut butter……yeah, we won’t go there. But I realize looking back, there was something there, in my mind, that pushed me to let those lemons get to me.

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Working out helped. I mean it seriously did! I’m officially on week 8 of 22 Hard Corps which I am totally stoked about. I kind of feel that I cheated week 7 from doing what it needed to do with what I ate–but hey, we’re all human. I have those days, I have those weeks as you guys know. So now what do I do from this moment on?

Well, I move forward! It’s Sunday! It’s a fresh start. It’s a clean slate to envision goals and go for them! It’s looking forward to a fun weekend coming, BUT not being able to allow myself to live in the now, in the moment that I am present in! It’s me taking every minute I have and making the most of them!

And that’s what I’m doing. I’m taking the lemons that life has given me these past couple of months and I’m squirting life in the eye with them. No lemonade–this time I’m sticking it to the man!! Now for some, making lemonade is what they need. They need that sweet taste of victory. But this week….I’m not looking for sweet victory. I’m looking for the total feeling on conquering what plagued me these past few weeks. So guys, don’t let the lemons get into you and make you sour! Don’t let what happened last week dictate this week. Take those lemons and do something with them. And personally—I’m squirting life in the eyes!

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