Sorrow Will Turn to Joy

tumblr_n6o0k4ri9i1slbk1yo1_1280It’s time!! School starts today and it’s kind of exciting to see all the kiddos again!!! So far, they’ve been very excited about continuing their music lessons and grow in their musical skills–so I hope that continues.

Last time I spoke to you guys, I talked about the fear of success. Because of that post, I have taken steps, baby ones–but still steps, to getting my dreams off the ground and flying. Of course, there have been obstacles that have popped up, but that’s normal. After all, life can’t be that simple.

All summer, I searched and searched numerous jobs, and none of them turned out like I thought they would. I started getting disappointed and frustrated that, for another year, I would be stuck in my parent’s house trying to figure out what to do. It didn’t matter how many times I prayed, what my devotions said, the reassurance of family and friends–I felt discouraged and defeated. I had writers block on my music, couldn’t find any gigs, the jobs I thought were great weren’t, family issues arose, and life just seemed to be spiraling out of control. On the way back from KC after an interview, I was just sitting quietly driving. No radio–just me, the hundreds of people in their cars, the road, and God. I was feeling discouraged and I didn’t know why, when a sentence popped in my head. “Don’t be like the Israelites wanting a king.”

Woah. Wait. Hold the spiritual telephone please–don’t be like what? Initial wondering makes you think and wonder if you came up with that on your own, but in the moment I was in, it couldn’t have been. I really feel there was a point to it, and I needed to listen. Driving along I-29, I figured, “Lisa. If you’re going to be doing something for the next 5 years while you’re building your music career–don’t you want to do something you enjoy?” (Thus my problem with job searching, I can’t just do something to get by, I want to enjoy it :/ But is that a bad thing?)

So while this was all going on, a friend of mine (and my Beachbody coach)–had reached out to me and asked if I had ever thought about being a coach myself. My initial thought was, “yes, but I don’t have the money to do it, and I don’t know anyone that would be interested in Beachbody that would even make me remotely successful in running my own business, sssooooooo what’s the point?” Of course, I never said that out loud. (Until now 😛  )  Through the couple summer challenges I had been on with her, she just subtly hinted at me about it, but she didn’t push the issue. I could tell she wanted me too, but I think that’s where she understood me. Even though we’ve never met face-to-face, and have only known each other for what…a couple of months?….she understood that I needed time. Which I did.

There is a point to all this–I swear. 😛 And it goes along with the fear of success post! 😉 (Look at me tying everything together XD)

Anywho–going back to doing something you enjoy. I wrote a bit about my personal story and how I got started in weight loss and becoming healthy. Why it was important to me and sharing my journey with the world wide web. But I think I might have missed an important point–my point for everything I do–whether it’s writing music, performing it, working out, or teaching–I want to help people! I want to help young men and women (and more elderly men and women too) reach the potential that I know they’re capable of. This is why, I finally put my foot forward and signed up as a Beachbody coach myself.

Now you’re thinking, “Holy Hercules’ ghost–another one.” WAIT!! IT’S OKAY!!!! I’m not going to bombard you with sales pitch, ’cause like I said–I want to help people!! And that’s not the only reason I became a coach– I did it because I believe in the workouts and Shakeology. I’m also becoming a personal trainer, so I need to coach people!! Both online and face-to-face.

I’m still doing music–music is my passion and what I’m called to by God. I still believe that. I’m also still writing my novels because…well, because I like writing. I need creativity and creative jobs to survive. My brain has been wired for this and I feel the most at peace when I’m in these areas and doing them. So why not just add my athletic side to that? 😉

What drives you? What passions push you forward? Who do you know that pushes you to the next level? Because writing these randoms thoughts and letting you all know I’m a Beachbody coach–that’s terrifying to me. But it’s who I am and I can’t be scared of it. Just like I can’t be scared to follow my dreams: to do music, to write books, to be me. A teacher once said, “Do what you’re passionate about and follow it with all your heart. Because there’s enough people in the world who have settled–so be amazing!”

As classes started yesterday, I was excited for some reason. I woke up this morning and turned in my substitute teacher application in and was excited. I look at my agenda and have started planning things for my students, and I’m excited. I see what I’m going to be learning in my classes–and I’m excited. I have a few people who are already interested in what I’m doing as a coach and have asked to learn more–I’m excited. I got a logo made, business cards done, 2 songs almost completed, and have met connections in this area that want to help me grow my music–I’m excited!!

If you would had told me this summer, I would feel this way right now on August 16th, 2016–I would have laughed at you. But now–no–

I’m excited!

Fear of…Success

Well hello there world wide web! Long time no hear! It’s been a couple busy months since we last spoke, and lets face it…I’m terrible at remembering to write. Course, it would help knowing what I should write about 😛 (Writer’s block anyone?)

With all the graduations that had been happening, it made me kind of think about what I would say to a graduating class should I get the chance. And this thought came to mind: what if, what if it’s not the fear of failure that holds us back from following our dreams–but rather the fear of success?

The fear of success? Is that really a thing? Can someone actually fear success? But why would they? Isn’t success the one thing we strive for? So who knows if this is actually a thing, but I think that it is possible. And I think it’s actually the one thing that has probably unconsciously kept me from pursuing my dreams to pursue my career in music. So let me explain my thoughts:

The fear of failure is obvious. If you’re really curious, this is called Atychiphobia. The fear of failure just means the we are aware that we can mess up big and so we don’t push ourselves outside of our comfort zone. We don’t want to mess up. We don’t want to fail and have people look at us with that smug, “I told you so” look. It keeps us from following our dreams and achieving what we are possible. Curiously, I looked up the fear of success and I came up with this. It is a real thing as Atychiphobia, with the same symptoms and all but instead fear of success is labeled Achievemephobia (someone correct me–Google can lie sometimes). 😛

But the question returns–why would someone be afraid of success? Again I turn to my own life this past year. I dream, I have big dreams, big plans that I would like to see my life go. I would love to sing, write songs, and perform for a living. It’s my ultimate goal in life. As I have worked a part-time job teaching, and applied to many jobs that aren’t very ‘creative’, I’ve come to know–I was meant to perform. I was created to sing. Going through school, our teachers gave us the reality that trying to work in the music industry would be hard and a lot of ground work. Failure is eminent at many steps along the way. (Fear of failure established) So the question is, how will you react and you will get right back up and ride when you get bucked off.

So fear of success? (Ok, I’m not going to say that I’m going to be the next big hit on any country radio station…..though that would totally and extremely amazing) But subconsciously I think, what if I did become successful. Doesn’t even have to be music related, just successful in general. It could mean that success may pull me away from my family. (I’m very family-oriented and seriously, I love being around my family as much as I can). Especially since my grandpa just died, I know that I only have a bit of time left with my grandma’s…but does that mean that I’m sacrificing my dreams and life to hold on to that? Success may require me to move to one of the coasts (O_O) It could mean being placed into a spotlight where people don’t agree with me, I will be judged, I will have to make big business decisions, and I’ll be pulled away from my home church.

…………….but I have a gift. Something I want to share with the world. A gift that God has given me to use to His glory, and I also don’t want to waste that. I’m a farmer’s daughter, a Kansas princess, and yes–though success could possibly pull from what and who I love….it doesn’t mean that I’ll be gone forever. Good bye isn’t forever. It’s not good-bye, it’s just see ya later. Aloha Oe.

Following your dreams are scary. There is that risk factor. There will be moments of failure, but failure teaches us that there’s always another door to go through. I read this excerpt out of a book, and it really stuck with me.”The thing about fear is that you can’t just ignore it. You can’t pretend it isn’t there, jut out your chin and keep going, because one day, right at the worst possible moment, you’ll slip and fall, and that fear will come bursting out and leave you shaking and helpless. No, the thing with fear is that you have to embrace it. You have to know it like an enemy, you have to understand how it makes you think and feel, and how much it twists your mind and reason. Once you know all that, it can’t surprise you. It can’t control you–you control it.” ~Sally Malcom (Stargate SGA-01: Rising)

Where’s all this going. I have decided that I will take that quotes advice and I won’t let fear, either of failure or success, hold me back from the journey and path that God has placed ahead of me. I don’t know where I’m going, but I know it has to do with music, and it’s something I need to share with the world. Also keeping in mind what Tim McGraw says, “Hold the door, say please, say thank you. Don’t steal, don’t cheat, don’t lie. I know you got mountains to climb, but always stay humble and kind. When those dreams you’re dreaming come to you, when the work you put in is realized. Let yourself feel the pride but, always stay humble and kind.”

Don’t fear failure, don’t fear success, know how they make you feel and you can control them. Be happy, live life, and be humble and kind.

 

 

A Lament of a Struggling Christian: Sometimes, Life Sucks.

It seems she knows the feelings and words that have been circling through my soul for so long–thank you Allison for writing and sharing this!! Padre was right– I needed it. People need this. This is a good thing to remember!!!

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Last week my pastor asked us to write a lament and then had us read them in our small group for Maundy Thursday. Afterwards, he pulled me aside and said that my lament needed to be shared, because it could potentially help others. It was difficult enough to share it in a small setting, so the thought of sharing it on a broader scale still scares the crap out of me, but I knew he was right, and I haven’t been able to shake off the feeling. It’s raw and it’s very vulnerable, but I am going to share it with you anyways. (FYI – A lament by definition is ‘an expression of grief, typically written in a creative form such as a song or poem’. The beauty of a Godly lament – as seen in many of the Psalms, aka The Psalms of Lament – is that though…

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Let’s Make 2016 One to Remember

Like every year, January 1st is always the day when most of the mass population of the human race decide to write down those pesky little things known as resolutions. I, for one, am no different. I have always done these things and they never seem to pan out–but I have a feeling that this year will be different.

Well……..one can hope 😛

One of my resolutions is to write more. Though, it’s hard to write when you feel you have nothing new to say. That’s how I felt after June–there was no more motivation for me too. I seemed to continue writing about the same things, without any answers or solutions to the problems I was facing. Of course, things did get kind of hectic with the last semester of school, but I felt like I was reaching what I wanted to do.

I’m still not quite sure what I want this blog to be–I started out not knowing what to write about, and then it turned into a failing fitness blog. So with the start of the new year, I thought–I need to start this back up. Going to school as a student is done (for now), it’s time to really start hitting the pavement to get my career going. I think this blog can really help–though with the amount of social media one has to go through, an artist really needs a social media guru just to keep up.

With this in mind, I really want to make this blog into a story of my building of my career, my ups and down in life, finishing and succeeding (notice I said succeeding 😉 ) my weight loss journey, recipes, and everything that’s…..well…me. The question is–how to make this blog me? That’s hardest part of any blog (as in any music career or career in general). It’s coming up with something that makes you different from everyone else. What sets you apart from the mass amount of people that blog? (Hey look Mom, I did learn something in school!!!!! 😉 ) Thus let’s just start with the basics–let’s bring in the new year with those pesky little things–my 2016 Resolutions.

  • Spend time with God, first thing, everyday
    • This is important to me, as it should have been even after graduation. I’ve come to the conclusion that home gives a sense of security, and that security doesn’t allow the fear or doubt creep in like it does when I was away at school. Thus my time with God started to dwindle less and less until now–it feels like He’s not even around. I know He is, I never doubt that, but I just can’t feel him. My pastor gave some encouraging words about this and I felt it was meant for me to hear. Just like the message I received last December in the voice of Aslan–I think this is the year that that comes to pass, because these words have still been going through my mind, even up too now.
  • Get to writing my own music
    • It’s my degree. It’s what I want to do with my life. It’s what I love to do……so why do I keep procrastinating on this stuff–well…because I unconsciously love to procrastinate…….bad combo. I want to get as many as I can, so I can make my first EP and then start doing some coffee shop/small shows/gigs/parties and such.
  • Stay in contact with my friends/family better 
    • These people are important to me (you guys know who you are) and I wouldn’t be where I am without them. But I’m a ’90s kid, and for some reason my brain keeps forgetting that I now live in the world of Facebook, Skype, Email, and text message. There are thousands of ways to stay in touch. I love snail mail….but there’s no excuse for me to be losing contact with them. I want to be a part of their lives and I want them to be a part of mine.
  • Read more books
    • This was my favorite past-time as a kid and I need to gain it back. Reading is good for the soul, brain, and mind. I’ve missed it.
  • Finish my novel
    • That’s right–last November I started a Revolutionary War spy novel–and I really want to finish it. Out of all the novels I’ve written, this has been my favorite. I might be tooting my own horn, but I do think it’s pretty fun.
  • Finally reach that fitness goal I’ve been wanting for 4 years
    • Last but not least. I think everybody puts this resolution somewhere; however, I have a new goal. I’m going to Hawaii in March–and ladies and gents, I need to look good in that new bikini!!!!! 😀 My cousins told me about this plan that they follow and absolutely love. I looked into it, started doing some workouts with them and kind of following their nutrition plan. I fell in love with it and had to become a member of the team. I’ll talk about that later, but I really believe that this is the step I need to reach that final goal! I’m really excited about it.

These are just a few of my New Years Resolutions and I hope that you all had a Happy Thanksgiving, Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year!! Here’s looking to you 2016. I have great plans in store for you  😉 actually, I believe God has great plans for you–I’m just here for the ride.

 

Monday’s Musings: 21 Day Fix–End of Week 1

Ho. Ly. COW!!! What a week last week. Crazy running back and forth to get seed, trying to help dad get the fields planted before the next rain, but at least the rain held back a bit so we got most of it done. It rained yesterday so it’s too wet to plant today, but dad only has 4 more days before he’s calling it. It’s been quite a spring/summer for farmers. It makes me glad that I graduated in May, because the harvest may not be very good this year :/

But during all this, I (well we, considering my mom is doing this with me) finished the first week of the 21 Day Fix. I kept a log of what I ate with their respected containers, and took little notes each day to remember what happened. So here’s what I learned from the first week.

Firstly, when you’re only doing yoga–don’t eat 3 cookies–even though it’s Father’s Day. Oh, and Lisa has a very bad peanut butter obsession that doesn’t probably help with her losing weight either 😛

Other then that, this week went pretty good. What I did realize, and it’s something that I already knew, was that I’m a very bad emotional eater. Take for instance on the days when I ate too many carbs/peanut butter (and yes it happened), it was the days that it got very hectic trying to help dad out in the field. Realizing this, this week, I’m really going to be watching that. When I feel emotional, I’m not going to grab a spoon and go for the peanut butter, instead I’m going to drink a glass of water and if I’m still hungry, grab some veggies.

Really the whole problem with the “only 2 teaspoons of peanut butter” and finding out how much I love my carbs are the things that I’m learning that I need to adjust. I thought that by eating more food I would gain weight, but I actually lost 4 lbs and then gained 2 back with our Father’s Day meal. It probably wouldn’t have been that bad, but like I said, only doing yoga didn’t really get my blood pumping enough to boost my metabolism into burn mode.

This plan is just like everyone said, really easy to follow. I think my mom said it best when she said, “it’s not just teaching you about portion control, but it’s teaching you how many portions of WHAT that make the difference.” And it’s true. I know that I LOVE LOVE LOVE carbs, but I’m only allowed 2 yellow containers per day. Because of this, I’ve had to figure out how to best work my love of carbs into this lifestyle. It’s been tough but I’m doing it. Sunday, if I remember, I’ll write about some of the recipes that I did last week and this week. Kind of show what I’ve been eating.

Did I mention that I’m also really proud of my mom? Cause I am. She’s doing great with the exercises and they’re really helping her back. I’m also seeing some definition and muscle building in her arms and legs 😀

I did get down to 168 on Saturday morning, but then water weight and cookies happened Sunday, so this morning I was at 170. Still pretty good I think though, but I’ll do better this week 🙂 (course I’ll have to watch myself because I have a bridal shower Saturday, and we all know what that means–appetizers–a person’s worse enemy when they’re trying to lose weight. But I’ll do good!! That’s week 1, and I’m going to work to make sure week 2 is even better–work harder, get stronger, see better results!!

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That’s what I’m telling myself this week when I want more peanut butter 😛 😉

Monday’s Musings: 21 Days To A New Me

Well hello there my friends–long time no write! School is officially done and I’m graduated!! So I’m just trying to relax and get started with this next chapter of life. Course, the ‘relaxing’ part really hasn’t come around yet, and I’m wondering if it will. 😛 With everything that happened those last few weeks of school, and even up too now–my weight has fluctuated more then it should have. As of yesterday, I had gained almost 15 lbs and am at 172. 😦 (NNNNOOOOO!!!!!!) To be honest, I have been quite upset with myself for “letting myself go,” and even though I have been watching what I eat and exercising…..nothing is working, and I’ve been gaining weight (as you can see). But….it will be alright, because I’m going to get this right before the 4th. I was talking to my cousin-in-law a couple days ago, and he made the statement that he would like to lose 20 lbs in a month, so I had an idea. I want to be down to 155-160 before the 4th of July, and so I challenged him to that–>that together we would work to be down 10-15 lbs each before seeing each other for 4th of July weekend at my grandparents house. Now how am I going to do this? Insanity got me great results, T25 got me to where I needed to be next, but it’s time for the next and final step to my weight loss journey to get totally healthy and fit. Because seriously I want firewoman abs yo!!!! Have you seen those ladies?! They got killer bodies, and rightly so, but they aren’t like body building abs, or skinny girl abs–they’re……….I don’t know how you would actually describe them, but I want a body like that.

However I have to remember: I’m not wanting another girl’s body. I want my body–but leaner, stronger, and healthier. Ok, so what is the final step? Well, I’m jumping on the bandwagon and putting the 21 Day Fix to the test!

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Check list/food schedule ready to go! Here’s how I’m going to be keeping my tally of food and water

They say it takes 21 days to break a bad habit, and so I’m giving it 21 Days (could be more then that) to break this “bad habit” of mine. I don’t want to keep using food as a anti-despessant. I know in my heart and mind that I’m an emotional eater, and so it’s time to just buckle down and get healthy for crying out loud!! I’m at the final step of this journey, and I truly believe that if I follow it, I’ll see great results, and find the lifestyle of eating/exercising that I need. (And then I can go back to Insanity and T25 again 😛 Get a little muscle confusion going on 😉 ). I’m planning on doing a weekly update about it, but I might forget–hopefully I won’t. It’s been 3 days, but here’s where I started out at:

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I look so happy don’t I? 😛 (I’ll be smiling at the end 😀 )

Weight: 172

Chest: 39 inches

Right/Left Arm: 12/12 inches

Waist: 33 inches

Hips: 38 inches

Right/Left Thigh: 25/26 inches

 

Sunday Seasonings: SO MUCH FOOD!!!!

It’s been awhile since I’ve gotten to do a Sunday Seasonings, and boy do I have a lot of new and tasty recipes for you guys!!! Enough chat, let’s get started….breakfast anyone?! 😀

Close……but not quite. I do like a little variety–like for instance:

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Chocolate Cheesecake Pancakes!!!!

You’re probably thinking “chocolate cheesecake pancakes……no wonder you gained weight Lisa.” WRONG!! These bad boys are only 48 calories per pancake. Yes, you heard me right:

Nutrition Facts
Servings 16.0
Amount Per Serving
calories 48
% Daily Value *
Total Fat 1 g 2 %
Saturated Fat 0 g 1 %
Monounsaturated Fat 0 g
Polyunsaturated Fat 0 g
Trans Fat 0 g
Cholesterol 25 mg 8 %
Sodium 263 mg 11 %
Potassium 70 mg 2 %
Total Carbohydrate 5 g 2 %
Dietary Fiber 1 g 5 %
Sugars 1 g
Protein 4 g 9 %
Vitamin A 2 %
Vitamin C 0 %
Calcium 5 %
Iron 1 %

Now you’re probably wondering how these beauties were created. Very simple so here’s the recipe that I used (oh and these are Lisa and roommates approved, so if you have doubts–don’t. They’re delicious!)

1 tsp Pure vanilla extract
1 tsp Baking Powder
2/3 cup Stevia in the Raw
1 1/2 cups Low Fat Cottage Cheese
1 cup Unsweetened Original or Vanilla Almond milk (no sugar)
2 eggs
3/4 cup whole wheat flour
1/4 cup Unsweetened Cocoa Powder

And here’s the link for the instructions.

http://overtimecook.com/2013/01/30/healthy-chocolate-cheesecake-pancakes/

Oh and by the way, it’s 48 calories with the sugar free chocolate chips. It’s about 50 or so with the chocolate chips, but you almost don’t need the chips, but I LOVED them too! 😀

Next breakfast thing I made was a egg waffle. Sounds weird, but it was like an bacon, cheese, and spinach omelet–but as a waffle. Just add a tiny bit of almond milk (or milk of your choice) to thin out the egg a bit so it can spread into the waffle maker evenly.

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Serve with toast and there ya go!!!

Now to snack time!!! New favorite snack, Citrus Yogurt Parfait!

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And all it is is Okios 0% Non-Fat Greek Yogurt (1/3 cup), 1/4 of a grapefruit with a bit of juice, and a little drizzle of honey for some sweetness!! SO GOOD!!! 😀

Onto Lunch and Dinner!!!!

Cucumber Tuna Boats? Yes!

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Make a simple tuna salad (mayo, mustard, tuna) and then de-seed a small cucumber, place tuna inside, top with cheese, and cut into pieces and enjoy! Not a cucumber fan–but I really liked this.

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Grilled Tilapia Fish Tacos–romaine lettuce:

1/4 tsp salt
2 small whole wheat tortillas
1 Tbsp Wholly Guacamole
1/2 cup shredded romaine lettuce
splash of lemon juice
4 oz, Frozen Tilapia Filets
dash of Cayenne Pepper

Grill the Tilapia in a skillet, on a grill, or bake it. Take tortillas and spread 1/2 the guac on each tortilla, place lettuce down, place 2 oz of fish on each tortilla, drizzle lemon juice on top, and then sprinkle on cayenne. Sounds like a weird combination–but really tasty!

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Chicken in Foil

1/3 cup Tri-Peppers (can find it frozen or homemade. If homemade then add a bit of white onion)

1/3 cup Baby Dutch Yellow Potatoes

4 1/2 oz boneless, skinless chicken breast

I also added some cayenne, cumin, and chili powder–to taste–can’t say how much I used but I put it all over the potatoes, and on the chicken. You put that all in foil and then create a pocket so that the chicken will steam inside. Bake at 350 degrees for about 15-20 minutes or until chicken is fully cooked. Take out and enjoy!! 😀

My other favorite was something I made over spring break for my parents was called Mouthwatering Chicken:

Here’s the original link, http://www.kitchme.com/recipes/melt-in-your-mouth-chicken-breast

But here’s how I revised it:

  • 1/2 tsp pepper
  • 1/2 tsp salt
  • 1/4 cup Kraft Mayo
  • 1/2 Tbsp Homestyle 100% Natural Parmesan
  • 16 oz boneless, skinless chicken breast

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I grilled these on the girl along with the asparagus, which I topped with olive oil, pepper, salt, and parmesan cheese. Add a side of rice, and you have a nice little lunch or dinner. It was SO good!!

YYYYUUUUMMMM!!! Just made myself hungry again! But hey, that’s all I have for this week. Will probably have some more next Sunday, but because I’m trying to get things out of our freezer and fridge (school ends in 35 days) I’m mainly just eating same old, same old things!

But until next time, this is the Farmer’s Daughter!!! 🙂